I'm still on the mend from the surgery. I can already tell the difference it's made on my body. The right side and mid section of my abdomen already feels freer. I had no idea how bound up the adhesions had made me feel.
I see the surgery as a metaphor to my overall healing; physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. The pictures the doc took while exploring my abdomen are icky and uber cool at the same time. All I can say is that the adhesions looked like ropes, or tendons, large rubber bands, spider webs or tentacles that connected parts of my body together that should not be connected.
I'm surprised I'd be this sore and exhausted...major exhaustion. But having this down time has made me realize the surgery to remove these tentacles will set me free. Free from the ropes that bound me to the past, my fears, my trauma that started the PTSD, and every link that's held me to the past is gone. I'm free to make a new future. Write a new story. Go on with my life. Make life better than before the accident. I am FREE!
The doc told Superman and Dylan, my BFF, there was not as many adhesions as he'd expected. He said I had a good looking liver. I don't know whether to blush or throw up.... lol But seriously it means so much to know my liver looks good. What a weight lifted off my mind. Plus, he left my inner squirrel untouched. That squirrel helps my child heart come out and play. I need it as much as I need my heart.
Hope Rocks (click link highlighted) will officially start next Thursday instead of today. I need an extra week to rest and heal. I'll post more details as I feel up to it. I'm hoping for a speedy recovery but I don't want to take on too much, too soon, and relapse. Go ahead and start painting your rocks if you haven't already.
I'd love to hear from you in my comment section while I'm healing. It would be like getting get well cards in my mailbox.
Much love and thanks for all for your prayers!!