Saturday, November 28, 2009

A Magic Capsule


I may have found a miracle in a capsule. I'm in disbelief that it may really be possible. I've secretly, and openly said, "Wow, wouldn't it be great if a pill could fix this or that?" Who doesn't want to "take a pill" to make it all better? Especially if you've been dealing with chronic pain, emotionally or physically, for a long time. I'm learning from Dr. Ed that either type of pain directly effects the other.

I also just learned that the pain I've been having in my abdomen may be due to scar tissue forming from the blunt force trauma from the accident. Apparently some people's bodies make more scar tissue than others. It looks like I'm one of "those peeps" with scar tissue built up not only in my mind, but in my body as well.

I've been in serious denial that I hurt nearly 24/7. I didn't want to give it "life" by admitting that fact. But the truth is; my guts feel like they've been attacked by a shark, chewed up, and then spit out. I'm left with the bruised, and battered pieces as my pipes for digestion. In denying these feelings to myself, I've neglected the fact that I need some real medical attention. I had some damage done by a surgeon in the early 90's to my body that has caused me lots of pain and suffering through the years--so I've put off getting help. I'm afraid of surrendering another piece of my flesh to people who are "practicing medicine". Denial doesn't make things go away. Imagine that?!

I couldn't take the pain any longer so I made an appointment this last week with a doctor that came with the highest recommendations in the G.I field. When he walked into the examining room, I immediately felt a sense of hope, and calmness. It felt like I was in a safe place just like it did when I walked into see Dr. Ed, my new PTSD specialist, for the first time.

After examining me, he told me he thinks the scar tissue in my body may be twisting and tweaking my intestines, and other organs. This may have caused a blockage somewhere and it may require surgery. We'll know more after he gets the blood work back, and the next round of tests scheduled for next Wednesday. [I'm gonna be lit up on the inside like a Christmas tree...]

He told me there will be nothing easy about what we need to do, and asked me if I understood that. Weird thing in hearing him say "this will not be an easy fix" is that it made me feel better. Why is that????? Because it's the truth, and I needed to hear that. There is freedom in truth. Dr. Ed is helping me see that. This is huge!

The doc then prescribed a new medication, Kapidex, for me to try. It seems to be working. None of the other meds I've been prescribed have worked. For the first time in a year and a half, a "PILL" has drastically reduced the pain in my stomach. I keep touching, and poking myself as if I'm in a dream!

My next adventure will be seeking out a magic pill to take off the 30 + pounds I've gained since the accident. That was the "real" shocker of the day getting on that dreaded scale but I have a feeling having more energy will be a key in changing this, too. Chronic pain, emotional or physical, can drain the life right out of you.

I have another feeling my Sassy Pants
are about to become
my underwear of choice
underneath my Monkey Pantz!

It's amazing what having a little relief can do for a girl's "tude"!

****Just for the record, I'm not in any way shape or form saying Kapidex or any pill is magical or will be the pill for you. I'm just stating what seems to be working for me at this point in time in my life. You should work with your doctor to find what works best for you.****

12 comments:

  1. Good for you! I'm glad you're finding relief.

    ReplyDelete
  2. I am happy to hear of the hope you have. I hope you find the peace you crave. This sure ain't heaven, but sometimes you get shown a glimpse. Hang tough girl.
    Half the battle is realizing you can change.
    (I hope I am listening to myself)
    xox, Lisa

    ReplyDelete
  3. yay for feeling better!!!! i'm glad that some true answers are coming your way. :)

    ReplyDelete
  4. But soft, methinks I scent the morning air.
    (Hamlet, 1. Act, 5. Scene)

    which shall be bright and joyfull for you. Makes one glad to read about your happyness.

    A wonderful firs advent Sunday for you.

    ReplyDelete
  5. Lille
    So glad you are on the path to getting better. This long term pain can be so cumulative! Thinking of you for intentional healing however it comes about !~
    Linda

    ReplyDelete
  6. Lily - that is such good news.
    I have had pain in my stomach as well - since I had my kidney removed and this summer the specialist said it was most likely rom scar tissue. But he didn't say all that your fellow id! Sure a lot of complications!
    Hope all goes well and the relieg continues!

    ReplyDelete
  7. Yep...Hope the surgery helps. That internal scarring can be a son of a bitch.

    I like my little pills when I use them. Though I kinda miss the hallucinogens I will suffice myself on the pain relievers in my dotage.

    ReplyDelete
  8. I have this same issue. After being pinned between a truck and a fence at age 12, it took time to recover. Then the scar tissue set in over a few years and would cause the same bouts with pain you're going through. I haven't had many more episodes in the last couple of years. I also have three children, which by the way, wasn't supposed to be possible for me. Praise the Lord! So, I know what you're going through, and it's awful! Truly, a shark attack is a great way to explain it. I'll write down the name of this drug though. After 15 years I've seen about 18 or 19 doctors and specialists who've all told me I just have to live with it. I'm so glad I read your post!

    ReplyDelete
  9. OMG! You FINALLY went to the doctor for that? Well, bless your little monkey butt! I'm so glad you have relief! But now I'm going to worry until all the tests are done. Keep me posted...

    ReplyDelete
  10. I'm glad you are feeling better!! This might make you feel better, too. We just started a new blog called Writers Rising and are looking for excellent writers to contribute, we'd love to have you. Please e-mail me if you are interested. kathyjenkins@hotmail.com

    ReplyDelete
  11. Relief is sweet! Good for you. I hope you are on the path to a major, pain-free, health change.

    Cheering you on.
    xo

    ReplyDelete
  12. You go girl! You are SO strong and brave!

    ReplyDelete

Thank you for stopping by and reading about my journey. I always welcome comments. Ummmm as long as you aren't a "bot"...

LinkWithin

Blog Widget by LinkWithin